to miss

I just can´t believe it
The last few days I´ve missed him
Just knowing that I can´t contact
Is tearing me up, it´s a sin.

Busy, busy what I am trying to be
Trying to move on
But what I just can´t see
Is just taking too long.

I know it´s early and things will be long
But I want to continue my life
Maybe it will be easier when I am gone
When there is no more strife.

To think it could have been repaired
But all is over that I know
If only he would listen to what everyone said
We would not be so low.

Some days are good some days are bad
That´s life everyone keeps saying
I just want to go to another land
And forget this mess and keep on praying.

We live we learn so the old saying goes
I have learnt way too much this time
But also with all my woes
I know my future is mine!

Today I am feeling much better.This forum helps so much.Slept really well.Feeling positive.I know there will be days where I will feel low but also those days are getting fewer and farther between.My sunshine keeps me going but sometimes the stress of it all is wearing me down.Single mum working 40 hours a week and doing everything myself not relying on anyone else....well there is noone really to rely on but me.I come first (well my sunshine comes first really)for the first time in my life and it´s long overdue that I look after me instead of looking after everyone else.It feels good to be reborn!