Tired

I am just so tired
Tired of being tired
Life has made me this way
I have made me this way.

I seem endlessly busy
No time to even think
I just want to be lazy
To help me find a link.

I work so hard and long
I bring it home as well
The endless whirring song
Leaves not my mind, my cell.

The joys of mummyhood
Keep my days from total loss
For here she is my food
I can feed on her love like moss.

I wake each day and realize
I am alone in my bed
But someday this will dematerialize
Into something whole instead.

Maybe it will come soon than late
I am ready for this now
Contact I have but I must wait
It is the best for me and her too.

Tired I am of all this crap
Tired of talking this and that
Tired of being nice and formal
Tired of trying to be normal.

Normal I am absolutely not
And I never hope to be
I want all this to stop
And let me be me!